As the new chapter of my life rapidly approaches, and my time in Utah fades to become a distant memory I have had a lot of time to ponder about a lot of things. The biggest thing in particular that has been on my mind is my incredible parents that I am leaving behind. Moving out of state is a very scary experience for me, just leaving my parents house to move in with Nick was intimidating. Now I am going to be moving my little family across two states! Granted I will be with Nick's incredible family, I will be hours away from mine. It is no exaggeration when I say my "life" is going to be left behind, although the definition of my life has changed greatly in the last 2.5 months. My life is now my daughter, there are lots of people in my life that I still care for but, my baby is my life & she is why we are moving. So we can better our lives together, for her.
Another thing that I have been thinking about is the lack of love and support I have felt from a lot of people. I have noticed over the last couple months & years that the friends you thought were you friends, really don't care about me like I care about them. I understand everyone getting their own lives & growing up, but the saying "having 3 real friends is way better than having 10 friends" definitely comes to mind. I always have thought of a bunch of different people as best friends, but I am seeing a serious lack of support, love, & overall friendship from a lot of those "best friends". Where those have lacked, others have stepped in & my relationships have blossomed with those real best friends of mine. While I do feel a sadness because it seems I am mourning the loss of people close to me, it makes me question the entire time if they ever were really there. Calling up a friend to get drunk, or have lunch isn't really much of a friendship to me. I want my best friends to be my family & I am glad to have found the friends of mine that I still feel that love and support from.
♣♣Also, happy mcdrunkies day. ♣♣
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